Great Expectations

Great expectations

they say its good to go through life without expecting anything from anyone..
Do what you gotta do, and if you get something more than what's your due, then consider it a bonus

Its one way to live life.. Its what all the grown up wisdom is all about.
Do what you're meant to do, thats your duty.. and fear not about the results.
That's one way to look at it..

As a young kid, I would wake up on Christmas morning,
with all kinds of goodies under my pillow and around my bed.
It was awesome, cuz it was unexpected..a bonus

Then I began to equate the concept of Santa with gifts.
and as December came rolling, I would get the countdown to Christmas eve started
As far removed from anything Christian as I was, Christmas eve was what I waited for.
and there is nothing bigger for a 5 year old, than the prospect of "santa" coming in at night
and stuffing your stockings with everything you wanted... or hoped for.
I mean a 5 year old doesn't want much..
but as december approached... I would clean up my act..
and stay clean.. and go to bed on time.. and wake up on time..
and make my bed. and clean up after myself.
so that Santa got the note.. that I was a "nice" kid.
and every day.. i would wait.. for december 24th
and the anticipation would build
and i would always wonder.. what will i wake up to Christmas morning..
Would I get a GI Joe?.... Would I get a transformer? Something from the Master of Universe?
A mattel toy car? I had been good for 2 months after all...surely that was worth a ferrari.
and my expectations would grow.. and I would wonder..
and every night.. the anticipation would make it all the more exciting..
and I would dream... of what it would be like.. on Christmas morning.
and I would wake up smiling.. and cross another day off the calender..

If someone told me then.. have no expectations for Christmas, I would look at them appalled
My world would have been shattered.
What's wrong with having expectations?
At worst, I wouldn't get what I wanted..
but atleast I got to dream..
and is that not worth it all at the end?
So what if I got a box of chocolates at the end of it all..
and no Gi Joes...
Atleast I got a box of chocolates, didn't I?

It was so simple back then...
We're all born perfect...
and then we learn about the world..
and the thought of disappointment...
and get so scared at the very prospect...
that we don't even dare to dream.

I wanna be that 5 year old kid again...
and yeah.. have all the expectations I want...
and sometimes I'll get what I hope is coming to me..
and other times.. I'll fall.

Well, falling down is part of life..
Getting up is living..
Time is swift, it races by;
Opportunities are born and die...
Still you wait and will not try -
A bird with wings who dares not rise and fly.

As R. Kelly so simplistically put it... I believe I can fly..

Come fly with ...

-The Canuck Engineer